Eleven days into 2012 and Iâ€™ve already written a little over eleven thousand words on the manuscript Iâ€™m trying to finish, plus a handful of thousand words on little short-shorts that arenâ€™t very good but are satisfying to write. In these past eleven days I have written more than I did in the past eleven weeks prior, and suddenly I feel like a useful member of society.
Not that anything Iâ€™m writing is useful or will benefit society in any appreciable way, unless you would like to argue that the making of things, the exercise of the almost certainly unique human ability to create things that are purely aesthetic in nature, adds a little bit of spark to the world and helps to rev up the spiritual engine of life that keeps us all moving forward in this crazy world of ours. Or not.
But despite going crazy, despite feeling like every dayâ€™s a struggle right now (and it wonâ€™t be forever, but when youâ€™re struggling right this secondâ€”that is really remarkably difficult to remember), I have this to point to and say oh, hey, look. Look at that. That is pretty fucking cool. The fact that I am writing every day is pretty impressive to me, anyway. Itâ€™s something Iâ€™d like to keep doing all the way through the year, an unbroken string of days.
Ideally, on December 31, 2012 Iâ€™d like to sit back and say, â€œDespite all the hardships that befell not only me but the earth, like when gas got really expensive and I lost both my thumbs and the zombies rose up and fully half the ocean was drained away into space by a giant striped bendy straw, the origin of which we are still struggling to understand, I still wrote every single day, a minimum of five hundred words but more usually about a thousand words, with the occasional three to ten thousand word marathon days that are such a luxury and a pleasure, and for which I would have gladly given even more thumbs, if I had had them to give.â€
That is my dream. Itâ€™s a simple dream, but I am nothing if not kind of simple.