(How Weight-Loss Surgery Transformed My Body and Messed with My Head)
“For all the noise our culture makes about fat and thin and health and perfect bodies, Jen Larsen’s voice rises above the clamor, disarming and funny but unflinching, too. Combining stark honesty with generosity of spirit, this story of loss and recovery is like no other.”
â€”Wendy McClure, columnist for BUST Magazine and author of The Wilder Life
“An arresting memoir about the author’s experience with weightâ€“loss surgery.
Larsen initially lied to her mother about the nature of her surgery and didnâ€™t tell her the truth until well after the procedure. She admits that her librarian coâ€“workers ‘probably knew more than I did’ about the risks and potential complications, and she spread the first payment across three credit cards. When a doctor reprimanded her for gaining, rather than losing, weight before the surgery date, Larsen asked, ‘If I don’t lose the weight, can you still operate?’ She smoked and drank heavily. After her painful recovery, she ‘ate whatever I could fit inside me, and suffered for it, and lost weight anyway.’ In the hands of a lesser writer, all of these facts could lead readers to feel judgment or disgust. Instead, Larsen’s honesty and insight make for a searing account of precisely what it feels like to be fat and to have complicated relationships with food, family and friends. We understand exactly why one would look to surgery as a solution to not only excess weight, but also fear, loneliness and unhappiness. Larsen eventually lost the weight, and she also moved on from her deadâ€“end job and her bad relationship. But though her life is measurably better, she still reels from the shock that selfâ€“acceptance did not come automatically: ‘You lose weight without having to develop selfâ€“awareness, selfâ€“control, a sense of self. In fact, you go ahead and you lose your sense of self.’
Raw vulnerability and rigorous emotional honesty make this weightâ€“loss memoir compelling and memorable.” â€”Kirkus Reviews
4 stars: People Magazine
“Does thin really equal happy? Jen Larsen had a job, a guy and loving friends, but her Holy Grail was being skinny. So when she tipped the scales at 308 pounds in 2006, she opted for weight loss surgery, which cost $56,000 and proved to be no panacea. Eating too much afterward made her violently ill, and her life (specifically her commitment-phobic boyfriend) didn’t change as she dreamed it would.
Eventually slimming down to 168 pounds, she found it easier to breathe and walk, but the Land of Eternal Slimness where problems did not exist,” she learned, is a myth: It’s personality, not body type, that opens doors to fulfillment.
Honest, brave and sparklingly funny, Larsen’s memoir reminds us that one size doesn’t–and shouldn’t–fit all.” â€”PEOPLE
About the Author
Jen Larsen is a writer living in Minneapolis. In 2006, she underwent weight loss surgery and lost almost 200 pounds. Almost ten years later, she’s still trying to figure out what that means in terms of health and body acceptance, but feels lucky to have experienced the full spectrum of weight and size issues on either end of the scale.